Archive for February, 2013

Dreamlike Dissolving Self

I want to say my body left. But those aren’t the right words, because it wasn’t like anything was missing. It was the middle of the night–the room was a solid deep midnight blue.  I watched my body dissolve.

Watercolor Interpretation of  a Dreamlike Experience

Watercolor Interpretation of a Dreamlike Experience

I experienced the sensation of my physical being very slowly disintegrating into twinkling stardust. It was beautiful and freaky at the very same time. Words are wholly inadequate for conveying this phenomenon.

1 minute video, captures the essence of this experience better than my words. 

   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vkZPt7O55C0

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February 25, 2013 at 5:15 am Leave a comment

Remembering Joy in Minnesota’s Simple Things

Last night I brought my dream into a lucid state where I was skating as a child.  In our Minnesota winters my dad would flood the backyard with a hose for several days and create a huge skating rink for the season. It was cold. Way too cold– but looking out of our wall of windows and seeing the crowd of kids playing made joining in irresistible.

Skating Mandala Watercolor by Amy Hautman

Skating Mandala Watercolor by Amy Hautman

I have crude metal plates with runners strapped to my boots. I can barely stand up but I am part of the group. They are my brothers and their friends– although it doesn’t really matter who they are. They are laughing and I am safe. I am one of them. I look up and watched the wispy snowflakes float through the soft blue gray sky toward me. I open my mouth and feel the crisp cold tingle of each flake melt as it touches my tongue. 

 I lower my gaze and my body shifts. I become aware of the tentative contact of the double metal blades against the ice. A little push and I coasted a few feet.  My tightly bundled body feels warm and protected as I drift smoothly a across the ice. I am smiling. 

That vivid dream recalled a fifty year old memory. I have the same kind of feeling right now.  I am surrounded by people I love– even though I just met them.  I am intensely focused and feeling the pure sensations of what I am coming to know. At times I am standing still, in silence with heightened awareness. And at other times, I feel a nudge forward into a new place with a fresh perspective. The moments of fear only come when I look down at my skates and wonder how I am going to do this.  As long as I can be present and trust my feet to know the way, I drift smoothly. I am smiling.

 

February 14, 2013 at 2:05 am Leave a comment


AUTHOR Amy Hautman Bates

I started this blog intending to write about the creative art's health and healing potential. Having been around art all my life, I thought I knew a lot about Art Therapy. But the more I read, the more fascinated I became, and the more I realized how little I knew. This blog is about my journey from full time artist to student at Southwestern College to Art Therapist... and whatever happens along the way.

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